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153. LIER!!!

2008-04-11T00:12:49Z

kyle is a fucking LIER!

THE END!

148.

2007-05-20T19:12:12Z

i am 12 weeks

due date dec 4th

that's TAWNY'S BIRTHDAY!!!

my feelings

2007-03-27T07:34:41Z

I'm tired of people making me feel stupid like I'm some kind of stupid giant like Lenny from of mice and men or that typical big buff bodyguard who doesn't even know his ABC's you know ok so what if I don't know calculus or other things or maybe I even misspell certain words .... Maybe I really am stupid ....

145. sunshine

2007-02-09T22:03:54Z

please marry me cillian murphy

...

oops

hehehe

144. mcr

2007-01-30T20:14:03Z

i just have one thing to say about My Chemical Romance ...

they have NOTHING on CURSIVE!!

142. cursive again

2006-12-09T02:58:48Z

cursive is playing at the troubadour
jan 10
cant wait
thats one way to start the new year!
hehe

141. florida???

2006-11-07T20:44:49Z

in january 2007 kyle, emma && i might go to Florida.
and we'll be there for three months.

its not for certain yet
but theres a 90% chance.

ugh.
i'm scarred.

otherwise
things are good
for kyle and i.

*sighs*

i love him
^_^

ok thats all for now.

<333

140. ugh

2006-10-11T21:04:46Z

wow its been a while since i've updated.
kylee and i are doing good.

my dads been acting strange though.
he doesnt even talk to anyone
in the house.

not even to my mother!!

he's a fucking asshole.

i really dont have anything to say

my life is so unintersting right now.

blarg.

<333

139. mute math

2006-09-28T00:39:40Z

they were awesome!
i saw them monday night!
i messaged them saying
that they brought me and
kylee together.

and that we're married

haha
they responded with wow
that's awesome.

they actually responded!!
they're freaking bad ass!!

i love them!!

<333

MuteMath=♥♥♥

138. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

2006-09-27T20:48:18Z

gr0w hair gr0w!!!!!

137. i figured it out

2006-09-02T20:30:29Z

relationships can really fuck a person up.

136. what the fuck did i do.

2006-09-02T20:27:38Z

well its finally arrived.

regret.

here i am
20 years old.

i'm not even close to getting my AA.

i've only completed 3 units.
no joke.

i graduated a year late because of complications
with valley view high school
btw fuck that school.

so fall 2005 math//psychology just to start out with.

dropped psychology because
when jer broke it off
i had ppl in there who knew him
always asking me questions on what happened
is he going to come back

dropped that.

my math teacher dropped me
because i had a D on ONE test
and I was getting As and B's on the other
tests.

I talked to the school about her
they said they couldnt do anything.
right.

Spring 2006
English
Piano
Music App

Dropped piano first day
because i wouldnt make it from
RCC moval to RCC Riv

English dropped me because
he said i never went to the lab
but I DID!

I finished all my hours in two weeks
but he said the paper he looked at said i didnt
have any.

there were two sara's
the other one i heard dropped a week after he
DROPPED me.

I once again complained to the school
and again said they couldnt do anything.

Fall 2006
English
Matth @ Riv Camp
Film Music App @ Moval Camp

I HAD to drop Eng and Math because of my accident
i wouldnt have a way to get there
Buses scare the crap out of me.
and i would have to get up @ 4 in the morning to get to school by 7

so now I'm only taking film because i can get
there because its right down the street.

I have no Car
I only get 300 every two weeks.

I'm married.

We're trying to get our own place.

I HAVE NO MONEY!
i need to buy my prescription
no money.

i want to cry.
I want to leave
I dont want to be married anymore.

i'm getting to stressed out.
kyle is annoying me.

he thinks everything is going to get handed to us.

WAKE UP KYLE!
its not.

...
why did I do this?

i'm contemplating on
dropping my film class
and look for a full time job,
but how the fuck am i going to get
there with out a car.

my parents offered for us to stay here until i get a car.
and my father is going to help me get a yaris.
but parents are nice
but what bothers me about kyle is that
he thinks everything is going to be easy.

he applied for full time @ fed ex.
he wants to move out to NorCal
but the school I need to go to for Mortuary Science is here in socal
I'm not even close to being finished with my AA!!!

WAKE UP KYLE!!
YOU'RE NOT EVEN DONE WITH YOUR AA!!
YOU'RE TAKING ONLINE CLASSES FOR SCRIPT!!
WHEN YOU SHOULD BE TAKING SCIENCE MATH HISTORY
SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
OK YOURE GOING TO GO TO AVIATION
SO YOU CAN MAKE MORE MONEY.
BUT YOU WANT TO DESIGN CLOTHES
TAKE CLASSES THAT'LL GO TOWARDS THAT!
WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO WRITE SCRIPTS ON
YOUR CLOTHES??

WHAT THE FUCK.
WE CAN'T HAVE FUN ANYMORE
THINGS HAVE CHANGED
shit i was i was thinking these things on our way to vegas
instead of thinking "fuck i'm going to puke"

*cries*
what did i do?

I dont want to be a stay @ home mom.
I have nothing against that.
i just know myself.
i would be constantly thinking
what kyle is doing?
who is he with?

i'm so psycho you guys.
I dont trust him.

We're Married and I'm asking him
if he's with someone else!

I seriously need to see a therapist.

i need help.

135. the shit hit the fan

2006-09-02T18:50:33Z

haha not really
but i told my parents yesterday
that i am married
so my dad talked to kyle

and yea
everythings fine
kyle is going to live here
until i get a car
and once i get a car
then we're going to move out
because we WERE going to move out
this month
but ...
that whole accident shit
man
fuck.

oh well
my dad is going to help me get a car
he's so nice.

i love my parents.
but yea

i can't wait to move out!
but
then kyle is going to be gone for three months!
mellie how do you do it?
how do you survive with out scott
when he's on leave?

i can't stand being away from kyle for one
day!!!

ugh!

oh well.
well just have to take it
one day at a time.

<333

132. omfg

2006-08-26T14:43:34Z

i cant believe i'm doing this.

i leave in one hour.

<333

131. art

2006-08-24T19:12:14Z

i call this "monsters in my closet"

Sara

130. saturday

2006-08-23T21:16:39Z

i wish it were today.

3 more days and counting.

♥

128. c0ncert line ups

2006-08-21T21:35:08Z

september 25.
mute math//
shiny t0y gunns//
j0nzetta

0ct0ber 1.
yeah yeah yeahs

0ct0ber 28
cursive//
the thermals//
eastern y0uth.

i am s0 excited!

0h and i g0t the new vines cd.
it r0cks.

128. @ Matthew's

2006-08-18T06:41:30Z

im at matthews.
he's drunk.

i hate alcohol.

kylee
is here too.

they're talking about obesesity....

now we're talking about his old
san diegan friends...

i hated
those old days.

any ways.

i'm off.

♥

i dont even remember which # i'm on....

2006-08-11T23:40:22Z

tomorrow will be 9 months.

jeez that's a freakin pregnancy

hahaha.

man ...

i think about it and its like ...

wow i've been with this moron
that long!

haha kidding he's not a moron.

only sometimes.

i'm hungry,

i think i'm going to eat some carrots.

^_^

erm i stole this from erica ^_^

2006-08-11T17:42:18Z

- Longest relationship:
9 months and still going ^_^

- Shortest relationship:
erm a week i think

- How many people have you broken up with?
i cant count

- How many times have you truly been in love..
once and i'm in love again. ^_^

- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
3

- Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
unfortunatly.

- Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
indeed

- Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
sadly yes. [im such an ass]

- Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
unfortunatly

- Are you happy being single or in relationships?
it depends i guess

- Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
guitly

- Have you ever been cheated on?
ME??? oh hell no!! I make ppl fall in love with me!! hahaha

- What is the best part of being in a relationship?
its a secret hehehe

- What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
jealousy [well with kyle i'm extremely EXTREMELY jealous]
*ive never have been before*

- Worst relationship
....

- Have you ever had your heart broken?
YES

- Which of your exes do you still talk to?
Timmmy, Jeremy, && Aaron

- If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you, who?
No. I love kyle!!!

- Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
I dunno

- Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
no. I'm terrible.

- Have you dated people who were not good to you?
nope

- Have you been in an abusive relationship?
nope ... well i'm the abuser hahaha poor kylee

- Have you dated someone older then you?
Yup.

- Younger?
yup ^_^

- What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
musicians

- Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or Girlfriend?
yea

- When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
erm now!!

- Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes. except if they cheated on you more than once and with more than once person ... or they killed someone or well you get the picture

- Believe in love at first sight?
*giggles* twice actually!!

- Ever dated two people at once?
try three HAHAHAHA [i was in middle school hehe]

- Ever been given a promise ring?
if you want to call it that

-Do you want to get married?
yes.

- Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
Tim= your gay
Aaron= you're weird
jeremy= use protection you asshole

- Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
......... YES!! hahaha

- Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
... well i liked them BEFORE they were bf/gf

- Do you believe in true love?
yea i guess haha

- Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
it hurts more than it sounds.
you can't eat sleep
everything reminds you of that person ...
yea its bad

124. happy h0ll0w

2006-08-02T21:19:44Z

cursive's new album is amazing.

thank you

kevin for
getting

me a copy before it
hits stores.

you are amazing.

♥

123. classes

2006-08-02T21:14:07Z

registered for classes.
i'm taking 11 units.
because of work.
english
math
and
film music appreciation
with my favorite
homosexual [at least i suspect]
teacher
[whom i am inlove with haha]
donald foster.

he is amazing.

^_^

oh mark your calenders

on Sunday Sept 17 Emma's having her 3rd birthday party!
woohoo!!

i know its early to tell you
but
i'm giving you a heads up
to keep that day opened.

♥

122. imh0tlikear0b0t

2006-08-02T21:06:44Z

t0night!!!!!!!!!!!
h0tlikear0b0t.

im excited!!

i havent seen them since
2003.

so sad.

but i am finally seeing them tonight!!!

so awesome!

they're so awesome.

121. blank

2006-07-31T18:42:22Z

kyle cut his hair

reallly short.

have a looksie

and now some pictures of us for the hell of it.
[i just want to show off]
^_^

♥

119. always

2006-07-19T17:53:11Z

so i just thought i should post this
only because i thought this was funny

...
this is mainly for girls

ok so i bought always pads today

[i dont wear tampons when i'm light
and i'm terrified of that tss shit]

but as i'm about to put it on

the little sticker cover sheet thingy

says

"have a happy period"

WHAT THE FUCK!!

having your period

is never joyus

you got cramps

bloating
pms
cravings

does that seem ...

happy??

i bet you anything

a MAN

thought of THAT slogan.

ok.

im done.

haha

♥